grace is gone

as i woke up this morning i felt something different. there's a feeling of emptiness inside me. i don't really have that "thing" that i look forward to everyday anymore. i just realised that my "grace" has gone.

as i was driving to the office after completing my usual chore i can't stop thinking about "grace". i look forward to talking to her every morning and she always make my day. if talking on the phone is not enough, we had breakfast together and again we talk; and we talk nonsense most of the time. we enjoy every moment of it.

but that moment has gone. "grace" is gone.

i keep repeating a stevie vai song and cried. the pain is unbearable. even without lyrics the song just says it all. sadness, anger, frustration, happy, love, hate, confuse, believe, conflict, faith, madness... everything. to make it more painful, me and "grace" love the song. we use to get high and listen to it again and again and never get bored. we watch it on the dvd for god knows how many times. we just get it. we just understand the feeling and meaning behind it.

but that moment has gone. "grace" is gone.

then i received a sms saying "hi". it's from "grace". i can't help it but feel fucking happy. i called her and sudden feeling of sadness rushed in. tears start to come out as we speak. i miss her so very much. i hang on to the fragile feeling and tell myself to enjoy the moment. i close my eyes and imagine that "grace" is beside me. but soon after that... reality kicks in...

"grace" is gone....